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Maturity proves difficult for some
So I have finally reached the summer before my senior year. I have come upon several mixed emotions. While I still look back and wonder how I got here already, I look forward and get overwhelmed at the idea that a year from now I will be completely responsible for all my actions.
Of course, on one hand I don't want to grow up, but on the other I can't wait to be free of the college loop that I have suddenly been pulled headfirst into.
I watch a good friend of mine, who has been graduated for a year, as he still lives at home with his parents and works at a job doing mechanical and odd jobs for his 'career.' This is something far less than what he spent nearly six years in college for. Is that what I have to look forward to?
I know he took a degree in an impossible field and I am taking a degree in a field wide open. I know he works hard and deserves better, he does reap the rewards. He has a fancy car and recently went to Europe for a month. He is still doing after graduation what I want to do before graduation. He shows me that my youth is not limited by my schooling or age.
So do I need to 'grow up?' I think I am grown up enough to make the right choices, but I still get treated as a little girl. As you can tell by my picture I look a little young. I recently went out to a restaurant with my mom and 12-year-old sister. My mother was asked if she wanted two children's menus. I nearly died. I am 21!
However, as much as I try to look my age, make up and all, I find it a large pain. I understand looking youthful is good for the future, I just wish I would get treated with some level of adulthood.
Trying to get into the bars is another thing. I have to do my make-up and attempt to look my age. The bouncers take plenty of time examining the ID. It is real, there's nothing fishy about it, I just look so young.
So maybe I am lucky. But does that mean that I should be treated as a little girl? Of course not. While I find it a compliment, I do have those moments when I want to scream simply because I seem so young and that I should 'grow up.'
My friend reminds me that my youth will always come from within, that regardless of my little girl look, I will be the age I want to be inside.
That is what I wish most of my fellow students knew. I am not preaching. However, I have seen the behaviors of some people and I wonder if I am at college or at day care. I agree that you should enjoy your life your way. However, cow sounds at 3 a.m. outside my window on a monday night isn't exactly my idea of funny.
There is always a chance to enjoy your youth, just remember who will take part in the enjoyment and who will take part in the endurement.
Of course we all do stupid things, that I don't deny. But remember, you need to enjoy this time. As my friend always says, "one day at a time, just as long as you don't forget where you are and who you are � it's all good."
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